Current mood:	confused
Current music:	Estel fussing in his cradle, Altime trying to sleep...

So Many Questions and No Answers...
My mind has been plagued with horrible images; visions of my own death, one that is sure to come if I fight in this war. I know this, my wife knows this, and that is why both of us have decided to stay. I have too much to live for now. My duty is now to be with my family, my wife and children, and I will fight only if the fight comes to us. I know I will be labeled a coward by some, noble by others, but none of it matters.

Vorladien is happy, I am happy and I refuse to change that.

What Celeborn feels, I do not know. Vorladien reassures me that he will agree, but I will always have a fear of being out of favor with him. He is the closest thing I have to a father now. Thranduil and his kingdom are my enemy now and I am not sad by this.

I wonder how he is though, where his mind is. He used to be so calm, sensible, albeit materialistic. What happened to cause such a change? Why has he fallen into darkness? How could he be so weak?

Will I be like him and betray my family as he betrayed his?

So many questions and no answers...

And so little time to answer them.