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A Love Growing Inside of Her
We made love behind the cover of a waterfall, on a grassy patch of land, in the cool damp shade of a cave. The wet curtain brought us an unspeakable privacy, a time alone that, with the Dunedain and our people, we were not able to get. As she lay, resting, I had gone swimming, bathing myself in the cool waters of this hidden stream. I was so content in my thinking that I did not notice the bandaged that bound my wound had slowly begun to unravel from the rush of the waves and by the time I had returned, it had fallen off into the river, never to bind or quell my pain, or the death that Eowil-Gang warned me would come if I were ever to remove the bandage from my side.

I crawled back up into our asylum, groaning painfully as, once again, I felt the pain torment my body. However I clenched my jaw and dragged my heaving body to my clothes, which lay a short distance away from Vorladien. She immediately noticed my pain and rushed over to me. I could hear her calling my name, fearfully, almost yelling. "My Lord, My Lord!! Are you all right!"

I looked over to her, then down at my wound. The poison had begun to spread. As it gently poured into my veins, it left a green tint of little rivers onto my skin. She stood and walked to me, looking down to examine the wound. Immediately my pain flowed into her body as it did when I pulled the arrow from her body and she fell to her knees, sobbing uncontrollably. I felt my heart sank and for a brief moment, I forgot my pain, the fact that I was dying and rushed over to her.

"Vorladien! What has happened?" I cried, believing that some other force had acted and harmed her. She was shaking furiously, her hand gripping the Rose of Luthien, which lay against her naked breast. Ignoring the fact that the pain was increasing at a rapid pace, the length of the poisoned veins growing longer and closer to my heart, I reached to touch her, my mind filled with concern. "My Light, are you all right? You are shaking like a leaf..."

She pushed my hand from her harshly and looked at my wound, crying loudly. "My lord, please, suffer no more!!"

Growing paler by the second, I grabbed her shoulders and looked into her eyes, but the image was becoming blurry, nothing more than a clouded figure of a beautiful woman in front of me. "Do not worry about me....What is the matter with you??"

"You, Legolas!! I faulter because of you! Oh, that wound is paining you so....." Her clouded face was green with illness and worry.

Suddenly, I felt a feeling of incredible sadness and guilt. She was suffering, crying, shaking because of me, because of the fact that I was too proud to allow her to ease my pain. This scar is a rememberance of my fault and for that I keep it, I thought to myself, but now what have I done to my wife? Why can I not see how much I am hurting her??? I shrunk my body away then, so pained from the guilt. I felt my will to live dry away like water in the sun and I lay myself on the grass, my eyes staring at the ceiling of the cave, waiting for the death to take me.

"....i am sorry, Vorladien....."

I soon felt her hands touching my head as she looked into my eyes, her warm tears falling onto my face like rain. "Please, my lord....please do not hurt any longer...." I was slipping in and out of conciousness and her words were becoming more scattered, broken to me. "what of....family..... wished....have.... the child.....i......bear....." was all I could hear.

I painfully reached up to her face for what I concieved to be the last time and touched my ice blue hand to her face before falling into darkness.

~*~

The light was glaring in my face as I heard a rush of water. I opened my eyes slowly, dreamily and looked about me. My body was covered with a blanket on this same grassy patch, but I was alone.... and I was alive.

Was it just a dream, all of this? I weakly began to sit up and frowned sadly. Could it be that none of what I had been experiencing all this time was a mere vision and I was still roaming Middle Earth alone? I couldn't think of any other reason why I had lived, why I suddenly felt no pain in my side, why....

I touched my wound......

Why the scar was gone........

All of a sudden, I heard the familiar humming, the sounds of a woman that I knew singing. The sounds neared and soon the outline of a woman appeared behind the falls, soon appearing the gentle, naked form of my wife, My Light, Vorladien.

"How do you feel, my lord..." she cooed gently, crawling over me, kissing my forehead.

"Surprisingly well." I said, a look of distant confusion washing over my face. "I am in no pain..."

Her tears started falling, her face now smiling happily as she embraced me. "That is good, melamin...."

I hold her for a time, overjoyed that what I have felt wasn't a dream, but something still plagued me. "What happened to me, Vorladien... Where is my scar?"

She parted from me, her face once again sinking into sadness. "I watched you dying...and I was dying with you..."

I looked off into the water, slowly remembering the events of the previous night, or whenever it was that it happened. I wasn't so certain anymore. "....I was dying......" I squeaked.

She nodded and put her forehead to my temple. "Yes...but I could not allow you to leave this world yet....for your child needs a father...."

My heart jumped as I heard her words and I stared at her, wide-eyed, my mouth struggling to speak. "M....My child....?"

Her eyes were shaky, yet assured.

"Vorladien, you are with child?"

She nodded silently and put her hand to her stomach. "I can feel it..."

Still overwhelmed, I sighed gently and took her in my arms. "Oh, my love...." I breathed, my hands touching her as if they had not felt her presence for centuries. "Oh, My Love, My Light, this is wonderful!"

Tears began to well up in my eyes as I embraced her, so overwhelmed with happiness, I was. I kissed her all over her face, which was wet from tears of joy. The tears tasted salty on my lips, but I didn't worry nor fear, for I knew that the tears were for the best and not for pain. "A child! Oh, Vorladien!!! I love you, I love you...."

I felt her body relax against mine, her eyes soft. She looked as if she were as overwhelmed with sudden happiness as I was. "Vorladien," I whispered, "You saved my life...You are giving me another one."

She smiled. "If you are happy, My Love, then so am I."

I looked at her with a slight hint of concern. "Why would I not be happy? I have now all that I have ever wanted!"

She placed her hand on her heart and without speaking a word, she said to me, Mine in yours....and yours in mine....forever till the end of time.....Forever we shall be happy, my lord.

I slowly lay her down and getting up, I moved down her body, placing my ear to her stomach. Inside, I heard the tiniest thump of life within her belly and I closed my eyes and began to speak to my unborn child.

"hello in there...... I'm your father.... You will one day rule an entire kingdom.. Perhaps two..." I said with a smile. "Your mother is perfect, she is the Light of Lorien... Inside of her the spirit of Luthien dwells... I don't deserve her... but you do..." My words were quiet and gentle as I turned my head and kissed her stomach.

She pulled me back up to meet her and looked me in the eye firmly. "Our child deserves us both. Just as we deserve eachother."

I just smiled, my face touching hers. "I love you, Daughter of Lorien...with all my heart..."

"and I love you, Son of Mirkwood...With all that I am..."

Benignly, I pressed my hand to her stomach and kissed her cheek. "Perhaps we should give some of our love to our little one..."

She giggled and placed her hand atop my own and with that we lay down again in the patch of of hidden grass and stone and discussed where this new event would lead our path.